Chris Brown released an emotional open letter on Instagram Thursday, May 28. The lengthy caption addressed love, anger and many other topics that have surrounded the Exclusive star’s career.
“I always thought I knew the concept of love,” Brown said in the post. “Fame and money can get in the way of that. Most of my issues always deal with love and me being in my feelings. Not to mention me being a dog sometimes. I can’t speak for everyone but I can say that my actions contributed a lot to my karma. Being jealous and angry and controlling.”
The Virginia singer went on to explain how he’s dealt with self-loathing, as well.
“There has been times where I looked in the mirror and hated the person I see,” Brown said. “I talk to God a lot now. He’s given me so much and I feel like I waste his gifts because of my impulsive personality. The world is full of negativity and I feel I play a part in it because of the choices I’ve made or mistakes.”
It’s difficult to pinpoint precisely what prompted Brown’s emotional post, but the singer has been dealing with a variety of non-music related issues lately.
On Tuesday, for instance, Brown apologized for his hand in a war of words with model Tyson Beckford. Their feud was reportedly over a selfie Beckford took with Brown’s former girlfriend Karrueche Tran.
The following day, Tran appeared in a radio interview, explaining how she’s tried to avoid the X star since their separation. The model/actress also confirmed reports that their relationship ended after she discovered he’d fathered a child with another woman while they were together.
Brown’s full unedited post is below:
I’m Konfuzed, I always thought I knew the concept of love. Fame and Money can get in the way of that. Most of my issues always deal with love and me being in my feelings. Not to mention me being a dog sometimes. I can’t speak for everyone but I can say that my actions contributed a lot to my karma. Being jealous and angry and controlling. There has been times where I looked in the mirror and hated the person I see. I talk to God a lot now. He’s given me so much and I feel like I waste his gifts becuz of my impulsive personality. The world is full of negativity and I feel I play a part in it becuz of the choices I’ve made or mistakes. I tend to accept the negative or the riff raff becuz I know what it’s like to be a young black “n—a” in America. I always see the good in people even when they don’t see it. I love others more than myself at times. Everything u see on the surface does not reflect what’s inside. This is my white flag. I surrender to life and all its blessings. I refuse to be petty and attention seeking. To know me is to love me. Good Bad UGLY! Sincerely, Konfuzed